The Brave
Putting on a strong and brave face gets tiring. You can withstand soo much and take a lot of hurt and beating but eventually people will start to see beyond the rough exterior and into the reality of who you really are - what you're really feeling - the real me. A daily routine becomes this infatuation with pleasing the balance of this world as if we are supposed to do what we do repeatedly for 365 (or 364) days a year. Eventually we all realize that we have become conformers. Freedom is a word we like to throw around especially as Americans but are we truly free from the confines of this world? I say indeed not. Yes- it is Christ who sets us free but most of us will not let go. We wont let go of our pasts or our thinking or our preferences. And when this bombardment of pain and hurt falls on us we shudder and hide because that is what we know.
It is the picture of surrender that scares us. Because our culture is so very caught up in being the best and the strongest we comform to that way of thinking ourselves, at least I do. The idea of standing on our own two feet and being able to take anything this world can throw at us seems more appealing than being seen as vulnerable. That is why when we do fall, we fall hard and rarely stand right back up. Our foundation is built on not who Jesus is but on who we are. And it continues to be this big circle that we tumble around in until we can see clearly.
The clear vision of life comes when we are the weakest and finally are able to hear the truth instead of the old familiar lies. Finally we can feel the power of the hands that created the universe from the largest stars to the smallest grains of life. To understand the sovereignty of the One who made the lame walk and the dumb talk and opened blinded eyes to see. To realize that the sun rises on His time and yet He knows our deepest desperate need. (BDW) To know that we don't have to prove a thing to anyone because Jesus is the One who is saving us and we don't have to do this alone. That is God's truth. And no matter how far we want to run we can't get away from it or Him.
I know that with each personal stuggle that I am facing right now I don't have to be soo tough and I don't need to work soo hard to be strong enough. I am nothing without the love of my Savior. He is with me. He knows what I am going through. He sees what is in store for me in the future. So my faith is in Him. He is everything I'll ever truly need.
It is the picture of surrender that scares us. Because our culture is so very caught up in being the best and the strongest we comform to that way of thinking ourselves, at least I do. The idea of standing on our own two feet and being able to take anything this world can throw at us seems more appealing than being seen as vulnerable. That is why when we do fall, we fall hard and rarely stand right back up. Our foundation is built on not who Jesus is but on who we are. And it continues to be this big circle that we tumble around in until we can see clearly.
The clear vision of life comes when we are the weakest and finally are able to hear the truth instead of the old familiar lies. Finally we can feel the power of the hands that created the universe from the largest stars to the smallest grains of life. To understand the sovereignty of the One who made the lame walk and the dumb talk and opened blinded eyes to see. To realize that the sun rises on His time and yet He knows our deepest desperate need. (BDW) To know that we don't have to prove a thing to anyone because Jesus is the One who is saving us and we don't have to do this alone. That is God's truth. And no matter how far we want to run we can't get away from it or Him.
I know that with each personal stuggle that I am facing right now I don't have to be soo tough and I don't need to work soo hard to be strong enough. I am nothing without the love of my Savior. He is with me. He knows what I am going through. He sees what is in store for me in the future. So my faith is in Him. He is everything I'll ever truly need.
